fuck.

well of course, yet again, as per usual.... i have failed myself. religion essay: due friday A : working wednesday night and thursday night... and i haven't even started. i'm supposed to be trying to work on it now... but it is my procrastinating nature that forces me to sit and ignore the signifigance of my essay. I already recieved 0/20 at the first check point for having nothing... if i don't do it... I. WILL. FAIL. not that i care about religion, but i do care about my honour roll mark... i need this... but i am a failure. i wish that some one would share a horrible story of their sucky lives so that i won't feel so bad..

words.

Brad said some VERY inspiring words to me just moments ago:


'you're [redacted] fucking [redacted]!
man whipper...
destroyer of hearts, queen of blades, trainer of dragons!'

on a separate note, i spent Tuesday and Wednesday nights watching AVPM and now i'm watching AVPS... :)

I'm in writer's craft class.

Similiar to caroline, i'm on the computer in class. and i'm blogging because i have the horrendous habit of procrastinating the shit out of my assignments =_= thank goodness for my [redacted] genes that give me the power to get perfect.. or near perfect on everything. today was awesome. I went to first period for 10 minutes, then the grads got called down to the forum for a grad meeting.. then, we all got called to the gym for the co-instructional sports assembly.. THEN the choir walked over to St.Patrick's school to sing at their annual christmas dinner. we sing carols, see santa and they feed us. it's epic... so basically i got to skip religion.. again.. cept this time it was legit. I hate religion class and i REALLLLY I hate my teacher.. and she hates me too lols. but more importantly... shit i HAVE to do: -writer's craft speech -writer's craft ISU -RELIGION ESSAY ...now i'm doing 'research' for my speech... on Mugglenet XD N.A.T.A.S.H.A: He glanced at lighting scar on Harry's forehead. "I know, I know -- it's not quite as good as winning Witch Weekly's Most-Charming-Smile Award five times in a row, as I have -- but it's a start, Harry, it's a start!" - Gilderoy Lockhart

writer's craft homework.

i'm using a macbook that doesn't have a notepad or anything, so imma do my homework on here.

Stream of Consciousness.

Stay still pose smile click flash...ugh... why am i so hungry i ate a whole piece of toast this morning ugh my stomach...who is this fatass to tell me to 'straighten up and look taller' i'm 5'9" in 4" heels what more could you want from me pose smile click flash ugh there goes my stomach again but no one noticed of course they don't care about anything but my looks flash i wonder if they're having a roast again this weekend... another than i'll skip, another crisp stuffed turkey soaked in sweet gravy another plate of intricately sliced potatoes another apple cinnamon pie with delicate vanilla ice-cream on the flash shit i blinked flash click flash why aren't they stopping flash flash blurr my head what the fuck stay still! pose! smile! blurr...pain...starving...fall.

NO MORE.

i'm at the point that i literally CANNOT take it anymore.

NO MORE BOYFRIENDS

NO MORE DATES

NO MORE I LOVE YOU

BECAUSE YOU DON'T AND I DON'T LOVE IT.

THEMOSTAMAZINGDAYEVER.

1. played LocoRoco at school :)

2. aced a religion test that i didn't study for

3. choir is today

4. oriana is coming over

5 we got our stories back from writers craft... i got 69/70....
AND MY TEACHER IS GETTING IT PUBLISHED!!! 8DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
I'm going to be a published author. FUCKYEAH!
i just need to fix a few minor spelling mistakes..
like 'thrown' instead of 'throne' and ',' instead of ';'
but other than that, it's perfect.

in a nutshell.

A is....

Overzealous

• fanatic: marked by excessive enthusiasm for and intense devotion to a cause or idea; "rabid isolationist"
• Too zealous; too enthusiastic, determined; too fervent
• overzealously - In an overzealous way; with excessive zeal
• overzealousness - The quality of being too zealous

yep. just about explains me. off to work for 8 hours. i had 5 hours of sleep. fml. (THANK YOU are you afraid of the dark? and Jay Baruchel for keeping me up!) i realized that after reading on the internet that Jay smoke weed, that he was TOTALLY high in his interview with Jimmy Kimmel, which i quite enjoyed. my biggest wish in life now is to get high with Jay Baruchel. Jay Trivia? -3 tattoos (yes i know where they all are ;D) -half Jewish half Irish Cathothlic... YET he's an Atheist (Y) -lives in his mother's neighbourhood with his two best friends -refuses to be naked in movies -his left eyebrow arches up sometimes ♥ -has a kitty-cat -has read four viking sagas XD -thinks that he's 'in no position to give advice' ... LIAR, HE'S IN EVERY POSITION -can speak fluent French ♥ (+5 hotness) -uses the word 'infinitely' as much as i use 'like' XD ILOVEHIM

bad day.

i'm having a bad day.. actually, it's not quite 'bad' persay, more like... mundane, dismal, flat out boring.

I'm in one of those moods that i get into.. i honestly wish i could stop being so angsty, i mean... there's so many things that could be making me happy... but they aren't. At least i have how to train your dragon...

here's a rant that i drabbled into writing while doing my writer's craft story.

Sometimes I’m not actually perfect… there is plenty of moments in my life like this one, where I fail to be creative and fail to be the embodiment of perfection. Despite the fact that I try, like the little train that could, there is times that my ‘I think I can’ falters, and I manage to be plunged into the mindset of 'I think I can’t'. There is a lot of pressure on me as I pause to think, and the clicking from other student’s keyboards washes over my calm. It’s quite intimidating to think that so many ideas and words can come from these people around me, but maybe the ideas and words aren’t as great as mine? That, I will not know unless I take the time to read the babies of those around me, which I will not do, due to my conceided and jealous nature.

-end rant-

Also, unless  I manage to make this story 50k words in length, in one weeked, i probably will not achieve nanowrimo.

I don't have enough time or energy to write ANOTHER story after already writing one for class.

__________________

random rants:
-i'm pretty sure that someone i thought was my friend is annoyed by me...
-i'm jealous of those in the play.. i couldn't audition because of work.. my one friend got the female lead.. and she's (wow this sounds bad..) not as good as me, so i easily could have gotten the part.
-i have a lot of issues, and not enough time to solve them
-i think i may be critically insane. (not that i wasn't before)
-i work tonight.. but i'm tired and weary of life.
-i work all weekend and i have plans to teach my friend pageant stuff (she's competing against me) and i have to finish my story..

__________________

if you have nothing nice to say, don't comment, i'm not in the mood.

names.

for writers craft i need to come up with character names.

Ryder- knight

Eli- height

Rhys- running

Lorelei- Alluring Enchantress

Adalyn- Noble

Tawny- Golden Brown

Busy week.

The rest of my week is serving to be quite busy!
i've gotten a few days break from work, but i'm back at it tonight.
Wednesday- The Land of Fabric calls for my assistance!
Thrusday- I will dance the ghoul-ish night away!
Friday- I will indulge in a lovely meal with a lovely man.
Saturday- The Land of Fabric makes a return call.
Sunday- WICKED. ♥♥♥... then handing out Hallowe'en Candy to the youngins.


but for now, i'm wasting away in the school library, researching Sir Desmond Mpilo Tutu.. who is actually a cool guy, depsite the fact that i'm not actually reasearching atm.
and i'm waiting for lunch to grace me with its yummy presence :3

10 more minutes.

my tummy hurts. i hate being a girl sometimes D:

Library.

So i am currently sitting in the library.. doing partially nothing, yet partially so much.

well actually i lied.. i'm not doing much at all. ^^;
cept kinda helping Oriana with writers craft.. that i finished days ago (for once) =_+
and waiting for Thom to finish his so we can go on our daily walk :3

I feel like a+d+d+i+n+g some ORTHOGRAPHY [in] here

iunno why i made it green :/

lalalalalalalala~♪♫♥

i'm bored BUT i'm cool enough to be wearing Silly Bands.. b/c caroline gave me two. ;D

i wanna change my name to [redacted] ;D ♥

Break your heart.

in the words of Taio Cruz:
I'm only gonna break break yo break break yo heart

i probably am though.. i wish you weren't so nice too... can't i date a douche-bag, Croatian guy who tells me that my ass is too big, and that i don't deserve him? in reality i don't think i deserve you at all...

*sigh*

Writer's Craft.

we're writing stories.. finally.

The snow fell and fell, landing elegantly upon her blanched, pale skin. She raised her bare arm upward to catch hold of the frozen vapour, magically calling it toward her with a soft, tender, but wordless whisper.

ill explain later.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

okay well now that time has passed, i can upate this. we have to write 'the starting of a story' using one of 53 choices given to us. i chose 'The snow fell and fell..."

and i'm done and very happy and lisco loves it!

Whimsical Promenade
The snow fell and fell, landing elegantly upon her blanched, pale skin. She raised her bare arm upward to catch hold of the frozen vapour, magically calling it toward her with a soft, tender, but wordless whisper. At the flick of her dainty wrist, each perfectly crafted flake that lied in her grasp began to waltz. Soaring in every direction, they lifted and swooped and graced the chilled air with their whimsical dance. The blizzard encouraged the woman to join in, pulling tenderly at her fur gown. She moved, twirling with swift, lyrical movements, long bleached tresses flowing around her. The gusts of air created melody, the flakes created the steps, and the wintry maiden danced along. Suddenly, day drifted into darkness, she ceased her dance and coolly ordered “freeze.” The winds and the snow flakes obeyed her crisp command, and all around her was harmoniously silent.

Pressure? Not on me.

Ironically, and for ONCE,

the pressure is not on me!
because of my muse in the form of a friend, Natasha, my newest writer's craft assignment has become one of my favourites EVER.

in March, I posted a poem, or rather, a rambling of sorts. Feelings and an analogy of my life. My fairy-tale complex was born.

Natasha has inspired me to use said piece of writing as an assignment for my class, and i've never felt so great about it.

Adding some MASSIVE orthography, and one additional sentence, i've transformed my insignificant poem into a writing masterpiece! 8D

so bad. so immoral.

yep!
that's me.
IMMORAL.


going to sleep now :/

SHOULD.

i should feel terrible.
i should fix this.
i should be saying what i need to say.

i should NOT be going out today with him...

i should probably not have posted this on the internet.

'should' being the key word.

Thump.

The wind whistled furiously through the trees, sending the leaves downward to the streets. A girl and boy walked to the coffee place two blocks away. The forceful wind caused the girl's short hair to fly in every direction, but that was not what bothered her, it was the how the gusts had the ability to blow into her eyes, she felt as though it was slicing her.
"Ow, the wind is hurting my eyes." She complained as she threw her arms in front of her face.
"Then close them silly" They both giggled at the boy's response.
"Now how do I see where i'm going?!" She exclaimed.
"I'll lead you." he replied as though it were obvious.
"Mmkay." She smiled and with eyes still closed, put her right hand on his shoulder.
Within about fifteen steps, the boy put his own right hand on hers and dragged it down to his arm. The girl linked her arm around his, assuming that it was what he was going for, but was surprised when he grabbed at her hand with his and laced their fingers together.
With her eyes closed, she was afraid that he would see the blush that was obviously spread across her face as it began to feel warm.
They walked in the midst of blowing wind, listening to only the sounds of leaves dancing, until the peaceful girl heard a noise in her head.
"Thump, thump, thump"
At first she wondered where said noise was coming from, then it hit her like a drunk truck driver. Just then she noticed the sound was coming from her heart, as it beat like a freaking bongo drum. Faster and faster, the beating sped.
They came to a halt and she opened her sore eyes to see that they had appeared at their destination.
Quiet and smiles were shared until he broke the silence,
"So, medium double double?"
she blushed as he remembered what coffee she drank.
"Yeah" she replied, but internally she swore,
"Fuck. Why is it so loud?"
"thump"
"thump"
"thump"
"thump"
_____________________________________
...*sigh*

only partly fictional.

Get out

This is our business, don’t want your two cents.

You don’t understand this confusion’s immense.

Just leave us alone as we go through this change,

You’re making it worse, my thoughts now deranged.

This is our business, no way is it yours,

Pretend you don’t see it, completely ignore.

You can’t read my mind, or peer in my soul,

Get out of our business have some self control.

This is our business, don’t make me shout,

Get out.

Get out.

Get out.

Get. Out.

written by me..

my ship.

i hope you're aboard.

sorry if you think that i'm in the wrong.

greattt.

JUST when i was thinking 'Oh! this isn't going to be a problem at all!'


it becomes a problem again :/

KIM POSSIBLE? honestly?

RAAAAAA.

I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HER SO MUCH!

not really..

in all honestly, i'm still upset that she thought i was a creeper and unfriended me. I JUST WANTED TO BE FRIENDS D':

sooon.

my birthday is in 4 days.
and soon i'll be having a drastic change. lol.




i'm getting my France wig soon too :)


i need to shower than i need to go to work...
i've worked like EVERYDAY lately.

pageant tomorrow.

i always get super pumped before a pageant.


even tho theres a BIG chance i could lose that goes by the name of 'Monika' *glares*
she's nice.. but a cheerleader/popular girl/hot babe =_=


but i've been practicing A LOT.


oh BUT see, i chose to compete against her rather than an ever BIGGER chance i could lose that goes by the name of Hannah-mae :/ ... i bumped up age groups because my birthday is a week after the pageant.


well i feel like checking off my check-list :) (I LOVE THE SENSATION OF CHECKING THINGS OFF A LIST!!)


wish me luck~

ja sam annoyed.

my croatian is bad. i don't care.

ja sam uzrujan, ali i sretni

neki ljudi su glupi
i hvala za ništa

baaah.

ja sam hladna.

brrrr.

Too much info?

MY BOOBS HURT.


D':

hmmm.

hmmm m hmmmmm hm hm hmmm hmmmmmmmmm hm hmm hmmmmm..

m hmmmm hmmmm m hmmm hmmmmmm. hmmmmmm hmm?

hmmm hmmmmm hm hmm. m hmmm hmmm hmm hm hmmm hmmm. hmmm.

well guess you'll never now what i just said.~

sucks hmm?

Sponge.

i'm chewing on a piece of sponge.


i enjoy it.


i work EVERYDAY until next Wednesday. =_= fml.


pageant next weekend (Y)


cept i have to do MASSIVE sewing...

irhthitrygdxruh.

hot cosplaying girls and guys at mcdonalds, they all suck.

Rylee unfriended me.

my dad knows about Nick. great.

David, i feel your pain.

tksdjtgnorofuckfuckfuckfucknraoyrary

brief.

keeping this brief


my birthday is soon :)


want to cut off all my hair


been questioning my gender recently :/


love these lyrics: 'I'd rather sleep my whole life away than have you keep me from dreaming'


i've been stalking recently. it's fun




don't wanna work anymore =_=


forgot to clean my room today.


bleh.

sighh.

i'm tired.
i love my job, but i dislike working.
does that make any sense??


=.=


now i just wanna relax and play sims... or read fanfiction.


but thats NEVER the case when you're a registered model of Daniela Majic Photography.
so it's photo-shoot time soon.


the only REALLY good part of today is that i'm eating McDonalds.. like a fat american <3

summer =w=.

so i've officially passed grade 12 English with 85% ;D and again, i tanned today :) last night i stayed up realllly late blowing up balloons for a photoshoot, here's a pic:

[redacted]

t'was quite interesting, but i've learned not to question my sister's photography views XD i'm just the model.. i have no say. (tho i do usually do my own hair and make-up)

i'm gunna go get some more fruit loops and play with my AMAZING sims family!

it's Spain and Romano.... AND ME! ;DD they're spouses tho, i'm just a room mate XD

_____________________________________________ He can’t see the smile I’m faking And my heart’s not breaking Cause I’m not feeling anything at all thank you Taylor for summing up some things :)

lolololol FrUk.

so i got an amazing email from my friend Adriana, who is a la senza member and received this promotion...


lets just say, it made my night.. considering my favourite country relationship is France and England.. the model is smokin' hot, and it says 'friends with benefits' AHAHAHA

all i can say is Paris and London

here it is:

summer has FINALLY begun.

soooo now that i did my summer school exam, all i have to do is get my marks tomorrow and i'm done with that shit. ;D


today after my exam for the whole hour of 11:00-12:00 i was outside tanning (avec tanning oil) in other words, i ACTUALLY have colour!! and i plan to do this again tomorrow and on sunday. I want some tan for my next beauty pageant :) (in 16 days!!)


this is my plan for the rest of summer:
-work
-tan
-sew
-play sims
-practice for pageants
-attend pageant finals (then another in Sept)
-draw
-read/write fanfiction <3
-celebrate my birthday!


ahh l'été, how i missed you <3

1/2.

With my ISU presentation out of the way, half of my day has become calm.

i did really well. except my video clip didn't work, so i had to run and get the WMV file from my email.. that killed my hopes for about a minute lol.. then it worked and i was satisfied and quite happy.


some girl chose the outsiders as their book and brought the DVD so now we're watching it, and as much as i love me some Ponyboy and Sodapop i've decided to keep to myself and be the quiet girl listening to her ipod blogging in the back of the class.. as per usual. :)


i would be with Stef and Raymond.. but the losers presented before break and left =_=
w/e i like being alone.


i have a half an hour to myself.
OMG I'M GOING TO READ FANFICTION.
the second half of my day is terrifying me already.. first day as a Fabricland employee :/




wish me luck <3

ISU.. I S who?

bleh. my want to actually work on my ISU is at a severe low.
but the fact that it is REQUIRED for me to finish by tomorrow is keeping me going.
i'm done 3/10 slides for my power point... and one is the title page =_=

what i still need to do:
-a crapload of writing
-make cue-cards
-make a poster
-come up with at least 5 questions pertaining to my isu

i have about 10 hours to do all of this.
BUT chances are that including, food breaks, bathroom breaks, fat bitch time breaks, my lazyness, and facebook breaks... this will be reduced to 5 hours. wish me luck in my endevours as i will need it more than a governement needs democracy, more than panda's need bamboo, more than catholic adults need small children to corrupt :/

i always feel particularly colourful while at summer school.
dear Natasha, i'm about to tweet you informing you that i'm coming over to steal your narnia dvd. kthnxbai

Super Massive Long Hetalia Thingy.

Name twelve of your favorite Axis Powers Hetalia characters in any order.

1. France

2. Spain

3. ChibiMano

4. Romano

5. Prussia

6. England

7. Russia

8. Canada

9. Poland

10. Lithuania

11. Germania

12. Rome

1) Have you read a five/ten fic fic?

Prussia and Lithuania!? no!

2) Do you think three is hot? How hot?

oh yeahhh, cuz i'm pedo like that

3) Do you recall any good fics about nine?

that one where he calls Lithuania b/c Lithuania has been cheating on him with Russia.. i'm pretty sure it was a back-theme to a FrUk fic

4) Would seven and two make a good couple?

Russia and Spain? poor spain <3

5) Four/Eight or Four/Nine?

four/eight. romano and canada XD

6) What would happen if Seven discovered three and eight in a secret relationship?

Russia would probably not give two shits.

7) Make a summary of at least twenty words for a two six fic.

After England's epic win against Spain and his seemingly impenetrable Armada, the English man is given full confidence that he can dominate the Spaniard again, in more ways than one.

8) Is there such a thing as a four/ten romantic fluff story?

Romano and Lithuania... NO. i hope not.

9) Suggest a title for a one/five Hurt/Comfort fic.

France and Prussia..

Bad Friends good.

10) What kind of plot would you use for a three/eleven fic?

A fucking twisted one, with A LOT of crack.

11) Does anyone on your friends list read number seven? What about nine slash?

Russia.. at least on of my friends has!

Poland/ ... maybe lol

12) If you wrote a song!fic about nine, what song would you choose?

sexy naughty bitchy.

13) if you wrote a two/three/six fic, what would the warning be?

...MAJOR PEDO WARNING ...

14) What pick up line might eight use on five?

...I like your bird...eh :)

15) Challenge: Write a drabble fic for ten/eight.

i'm opting out of this due to strict head canon.

16) What would happen if Seven walked in on Two and Twelve having sex?

Russia sees Spain and Rome

i think he would just smile..

17) What kind of plot would you use if you wanted Four to deflower One?

Romano slowly and painfully plucked the rose petals off one by one, sending France into a state of excruciating torture. Romano Smiled.

18) Does anyone on your friends list read seven slash?

iunno.. I READ RUSSIAMERICA

19) Does anyone on your friends list read Three hetero?

NOOO because one day, that boy will grow up to be a wonder gay man <3

20) Does anyone on your friends list draw eleven?

i have...

21) Would you write Two/Four/Five?

SPAIN/ROMANO/PRUSSIA YEHAHHYEAHHHHHHHHHH i actually am compelled to now XDD

22) What might Ten scream at a moment of great passion?

Protecting his Poland <3

23) When was the last time you read a fic about Five?

Prussia.. recently..

24) What is Six’s super-secret kink?

... FRANCIS...with a unicorn horn up his bum bum : D <3

25) Would Eleven shag nine? Drunk or sober?

no not at all.

26) If Three and Seven got together, who tops?

Russia... poor Chibimano <3

27) “One and Nine are in a happy relationship until Nine suddenly runs off with Four. One, broken-hearted, has a hot one-night stand with Eleven and a brief unhappy affair with Twelve, then follows the wise advice of Five and finds true love with Two.” What title would you give this fic?

“France and Poland are in a happy relationship until Poland suddenly runs off with Romano. France, broken-hearted, has a hot one-night stand with Rome and a brief unhappy affair with Germaina, then follows the wise advice of Prussia and finds true love with Spain.”

'Closer than you think' ..due to the fact that spain and france are beside each other

28) How would you feel if Seven/Eight was canon?

uh... i'd scared for my country's life

Russia and Canada :/ actually i read a fic where the whole world is with Canada and i quite enjoyed the Russia/Canada scenes considering Russia get's turned into a kitty and i love cats!

29) What would Twelve and One be like in a relationship?

Rome and France.. i could see it, if Rome wasn't old and decrepit.. but in his prime they'd probably do lovely nasty things on a certain Roman's boat ;D

30) Two and Ten: Totally crack or canon?

Spain and Germaina. CRACCCCKK

31) Is four het or slash better?

ROMANO...SLASHHHHH SPAINNN <3

32) Have you ever read any fanfiction of Five and Eleven?

Prussia and Germaina.. nope

33) Why was Six afraid of Seven? Because Seven is after Nine and Ten!

Why was England afraid of Russia? Because Russia is after Poland and Lithuania... THIS IS AWESOME AND ACTUALLY MADE SENSE.

34) If Eight was to cosplay, what would they be?

Hinata from Naruto.

35) How many beers would One have to chug to go after Twelve?

..Francis drinks fine wine.. and he wouldn’t have to be drunk AT ALL to go after anyone XD

36) Would Three make a good couple with Six? Or a better couple with two?

Chibimano with England or Spain.. WELL DURRR one of my OTP's SPA-fucking-MANO

37) Six and Seven have to go n a fishing trip together. Would they end up getting “distracted” halfway through?

Distracted.. but i highly doubt it would be in a sexual way :/

38) Pick a Disney film to represent Ten and Two.

Alice in Wonderland <3

39) if Three and Eleven are doing S&M, who’s the sadist?

opting out of this question

40) Pick a song to describe a 7/12 fic.

I'm on a boat... Russia/Rome

41) is there and evidence of four/twelve?

well it's his Grandpa.. and everyone in Hetalia is quite incestuous.. :/

42) How hot would seven/three be?

anyone except for Spain with Chibimano is just NOT HOT.

43)If seven walked in on two and eight performing, shall we say, “interesting” activities, what would their reaction be?

he would go yell at Francis for letting his 'pervy friend' touch their son ;D i got some fruk in there XD

44) What’s one’s secret kink?

France:

England speaking French <3

45) How about twelve?

Boats. and being on them.

46) Or perhaps 10?

Lithuania.. :/ iunno

47) What title would you assign a one/three/five threesome?

France/Chibimano/Prussia

Spain gonna take his giant axe thing and chop yo balls off.

48) How about two/four/six?

Spain/Romano/England

Language Barriers

49) Or even seven/eight/nine?

Russia/Canada/Poland

Blonde Bombshells ;D

you don't.

You Don't Know Me Lyrics


I wanna ask you
Do you ever sit and wonder,
It's so strange
That we could be together for
So long, and never know, never care
What goes on in the other one's head?

Things I've felt but I've never said
You said things that I never said
So I'll say something that I should have said long ago:

(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all
(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all (at all)

You could have just propped me up on the table like a mannequin
Or a cardboard stand-up and paint me (paint me anything)
Any face that you wanted me
To be seen.
We're
Damned by the existential moment where
We saw the couple in the coma and
It was we were the cliché,
But we carried on anyway.

So, sure, I could just close my eyes.
Yeah, sure, trace and memorize,
But can you go back once you know

(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all
(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all (at all)

(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all
(You don't know me)
You don't know me

If I'm the person that you think I am (Ah ah ahh)
Clueless chump you seem to think I am (Ah ah ahhh)
So easily led astray,
An errant dog who occasionally escapes and needs a shorter leash, then
Why the fuck would you want me back?!

Maybe it's because


(You don't know me at all)
Ahhh ah
Ahhh ah
(You don't know me, you don't know me.)

Ahhh ah
Ahhh ah
So, what I'm trying to say is
What (What?)
I'm trying to tell you
It's not gonna come out like I wanna say it cause I know you'll only change it.


(Say it.)

(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all
(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all (at all)

(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all
(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all (at all)


...AT ALL!



..........................................................

i'd rather not explain.

DAVIDDD.

 spent the day with David.. in other words, today was AWESOMEEEE <3 this day entailed browsing a ton of stores around the movie theatre, sitting in an empty theatre for a good 20-30 minutes, watching the last airbender.. then having mini bending battles as well as discussing our elements XD some fun happenings: -*upon seeing the tarot card box entitled 'Easy Tarot' and thinking the picture is pretty* David accidentally says "THATS SO EASYYY" -complaining about the prices at Michaels -*Edward Cullen poster* "wow, if i wanted pussy, i'd be straight" XD -playing with the soft fluffy paint brushes -"I FOUND THE BIRDS!" -squeaking all the dog toys

-playing DDR and getting ALL the same scores XD -sitting in an empty theatre talking about sex XD -"and i jizzed in her mouth" XD -"every time you do that, i get wet" -"He may be an air bender AND a water bender.. but i'm a David bender"-me ;D -"no really, i'm a Hair bender" XD i missed david.. and my thumb nail is still blue from him painting it at the pharmasave XD <3

wow.

oh wow man..
if what i really think is what i'm sure of.. then people are gunna fucking hate me v_v



WELL ANYWAY my room is spotless clean. and my sister is visiting today :/
i'm realllly bored..
why is no one replying to me on facebook?


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i need to shower.

Poems.

Today, i was given two hours to write 5 poems lol, and i'd like to share them XD

Haiku - Flowers

Pulled in the flowers

She has sacrificed herself

To them she belongs

Acrostic - Wonderland

Whirlwind of imagination
Outside the box
Nothing is what it is not
Drowning in fantasy
Ecstasy in the magic
Rupture your mundane thoughts
Lost, yet found
Alluring your senses
Nonsense, yet sensible
Dreaming of wonder.

Diamonte- Conscious Dreaming

Asleep

Quiet, Dark

Dreaming, Resting, Drifting

Fantasy, Closed, Open, Reality

Knowing, Seeing, Doing

Conscious, Light

Awake

Cinquain - Masked

Mask

Concealed, hidden
Lying, burrowing, covering

Deceived, Camouflaged, Veiled, Shielded
Disguise

Limerick - Humid

Puffy is my Hair
Direct at you I stare

Look like a cat
My hair not flat
Humidity in the air

Apperently.

So apparently i'm re-living a VERY similar experience.

The first time it was "Joan of Arc is not a martyr"... HELLLNO...
NOW it's
"Napoleon Bonaparte, is NOT a tragic hero"... EXCUSEMOI...

THESE TEACHERS NEED TO STOP HATING ON THE FRENCH.. I JUST WANT TO DO A PROJECT ON A FRENCH PERSON!!!

well admittedly, my summer school teacher said he is a tragic hero, but he doesn't fit all the criteria that i need to quote, therefore i can't write an essay on him. FUUUU

my new tragic hero is Martha Stewart.. that greedy bitch.

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HAPPY BASTILLE DAY IN FRANCE!!! <3

For you. Feel.

I know the feeling hurts. Sometimes I feel as though I understand. And it may feel like it will never end. But the feelings can at least be pushed aside. When better feelings decide to visit. And the way you feel, leaves you alone. But when someone like me feels your sorrow, I feel as though the only importance to me at this moment.. is your happiness. So let my love feel your soul. Maybe you may too feel what i've felt. This feeling that keeps me going, keeps me feeling. I don't want you to feel alone... -A

ESPAÑAAAA.

So Spain won.. AGAIN ;D

they're in the finals now.

Paul the Octopus:
http://edition.cnn.com/2010/SPORT/football/07/06/germany.octopus.semifinal/?hpt=C2&imw=Y&fbid=p2DkSQ9-pkv

he's predicted every one of Germany's games correctly.
my father goes: 'I'M GOING TO KILL THAT STUPID OCTOPUS!!' ahahahahah

i LOVE THAT OCTOPUS

except now they face Netherlands, and for those of you who know. my lovely boyfriend is a netherlands fan XD

IT'S ONNN. 8D

we need to make a bet XD

8D.

....... 8D
life is good.

fighting dreamers.

for some stupid obnoxious reason, 'fighting dreamers' has been stuck in my head all morning =_=

though morning isn't even close to over -_- it's 10 am exactly.
and i'm at school. summer school to be exact. bleh
and we're in the library on the computers, i should be working on my first essay, but i'm actually ahead.. so i have time to blog. At first i wasn't talking to many people, but some girl and me started talking today b/c we both had to deal with sign-up problems .. we weren't on the attendance. also since we're in the library, i'm sitting with the guys from my school.

The school is FREEZING and i'm hungry.. we have break in 45 mintes.. then 3 more hours to go =____=

atleast i have two new internet friends :) Heather and Shelly 8DD i need some friends...

BUT ANYWAY imma make it look like i'm working, ttyl loves <3 br="">
-A~

Dear Anonymous..10..

Anon 1.
why did you give up?
I know it seems more like it's my fault that you won't keep trying.
but I miss you trying.
I want you trying.
I want you in my life.

Anon 2.
Why do I doubt you?
I honestly wish I knew.
more and more we seem related to them.
it's honestly depressing.
I just want to trust your love.

Anon 3.
I'm trying to help you.
can't you see that?
let me help you.

Anon 4.
I wish I could treat you better..
You deserve it.
But for some reason, I can't bring myself to give you 'better'.

Anon 5.
Go Away!
You're just flat out ruining things...

Anon 6.
I'm sorry that I hurt you..
unfortunately sometimes ... things happen...

Anon 7.
You're immature.
Please grow up soon.

Anon 8.
You're pretty immature too.
Not as immature as 'Anon 7', but immature in a different way.
Soon your problems will go away, just give it time.

Anon 9.
I wish you wouldn't hurt him.
He doesn't deserve what you're giving him.

....Anon 10....
Stop lying to yourself
Stop 'fake-smiling'
Stop denying your angsty-ness
Stop doubting
Stop regretting
Stop trying so hard
Stop holding on
Stop wishing
and for god's sake...
Stop crying...
Just stop it!

*sigh*

marks.

dear school, why do you ALWAYS make me get in trouble with my father??


this semester, my marks were:
art-88%
history-95%
religion-80%

...then there's math.... *cough*59percent*cough*

FML

i'm screwed no matter what, it's either show my dad my report card and lie about my exam marks. or NOT show him my report card AND lie about my exam marks.. =_= i'm lying either way...

on the plus side, i was SUPPOSED to pass history with a 92% but mr.del sordo (my hero), told me that he thought '92 isn't very 'Alisha'!' so he took a speech i VOLUNTARILY wrote earlier this semester expressing how Hercules Legendary Journeys is beneficial to his ancient history class and MARKED IT! XDD and my mark ended up going up to a 95%..
did i mention that i love him? XD

oh! and i got my mark for what i got on my religion isu, i got 88% ;D

again on the plus side, i need 30 credits to graduate and i have 24 atm. =D i'll be graduating with 31 credits (b/c of summer school)... which (if anyone realllly knows me) is my least favourite number XD

yup.. i'm gunna go make up some lies now :)