fuck.

well of course, yet again, as per usual.... i have failed myself. religion essay: due friday A : working wednesday night and thursday night... and i haven't even started. i'm supposed to be trying to work on it now... but it is my procrastinating nature that forces me to sit and ignore the signifigance of my essay. I already recieved 0/20 at the first check point for having nothing... if i don't do it... I. WILL. FAIL. not that i care about religion, but i do care about my honour roll mark... i need this... but i am a failure. i wish that some one would share a horrible story of their sucky lives so that i won't feel so bad..

words.

Brad said some VERY inspiring words to me just moments ago:


'you're [redacted] fucking [redacted]!
man whipper...
destroyer of hearts, queen of blades, trainer of dragons!'

on a separate note, i spent Tuesday and Wednesday nights watching AVPM and now i'm watching AVPS... :)

I'm in writer's craft class.

Similiar to caroline, i'm on the computer in class. and i'm blogging because i have the horrendous habit of procrastinating the shit out of my assignments =_= thank goodness for my [redacted] genes that give me the power to get perfect.. or near perfect on everything. today was awesome. I went to first period for 10 minutes, then the grads got called down to the forum for a grad meeting.. then, we all got called to the gym for the co-instructional sports assembly.. THEN the choir walked over to St.Patrick's school to sing at their annual christmas dinner. we sing carols, see santa and they feed us. it's epic... so basically i got to skip religion.. again.. cept this time it was legit. I hate religion class and i REALLLLY I hate my teacher.. and she hates me too lols. but more importantly... shit i HAVE to do: -writer's craft speech -writer's craft ISU -RELIGION ESSAY ...now i'm doing 'research' for my speech... on Mugglenet XD N.A.T.A.S.H.A: He glanced at lighting scar on Harry's forehead. "I know, I know -- it's not quite as good as winning Witch Weekly's Most-Charming-Smile Award five times in a row, as I have -- but it's a start, Harry, it's a start!" - Gilderoy Lockhart

writer's craft homework.

i'm using a macbook that doesn't have a notepad or anything, so imma do my homework on here.

Stream of Consciousness.

Stay still pose smile click flash...ugh... why am i so hungry i ate a whole piece of toast this morning ugh my stomach...who is this fatass to tell me to 'straighten up and look taller' i'm 5'9" in 4" heels what more could you want from me pose smile click flash ugh there goes my stomach again but no one noticed of course they don't care about anything but my looks flash i wonder if they're having a roast again this weekend... another than i'll skip, another crisp stuffed turkey soaked in sweet gravy another plate of intricately sliced potatoes another apple cinnamon pie with delicate vanilla ice-cream on the flash shit i blinked flash click flash why aren't they stopping flash flash blurr my head what the fuck stay still! pose! smile! blurr...pain...starving...fall.