Mind the gap.

I've been in weird relationships before.
I even dated someone eleven years older than me...
but this is bad.

I'm talking with a beautiful guy in California. (age 23)
I got invited into a threesome with a gorgeous couple. (age 23 and 25)
and [redacted]

Cali. boy is miles away and can never be what I need.
Menage-a-trois couple are super sexy and titillating, but I'm not really into that.
[redacted]

This is what I mean by weird.

(edited in 2020 from embarrassment)

Ugliness.

I despise unattractive people.

I feel sick when I have to stare at unattractive people for too long.
Ugliness hurts me.
Big noses, crooked teeth with gaps the size of canyons.
Overbites so far over-bitten that I fear for the skin below their lips.
Small eyes set so far apart that their peripheral field must be a wide expanse.
Awkward, tall lankiness, the stature of a weak, naked tree.
Ugliness.
Only the attractive deserve my time of day.

I....
I am unattractive.