Friday, July 29, 2011

So many feelings..

Lately I've just been so.. overwhelmed.
Let me rant...
I feel upset about harry potter ending, all the time, confused because lately I've been loving the idea of having kids one day, horrible because I'm in love with 14 year old British actor Bertie Gilbert... I'm four years older than him, angry about Morgan and her indecisiveness with me, frustrated with Richard's amazing compliments and how they make me feel, torn because I want to write this, but I have to pee, tired even though I want to type out more stuff for Natasha and my Harry Potter next generation, pointless because no one will read this, depressed because my friends won't even make an effort to talk to me, even worse because my writers craft friends have planned a picnic on a day i'm working and don't care enough about me to reschedule, exhausted because I work so much, annoyed because my computer keeps blue-screening, nervous because I have an interview with some art lady soon, anxious because i'm waiting for a quota on how much it will cost to publish my book with a company, scared because I haven't started on my portfolio for college yet, ugly because i'll be competing against two tiny blonde girls at a pageant soon, overwhelmed because my mind is trying to think about all of this at once when I just want it all to stop.