sighh.

i'm tired.
i love my job, but i dislike working.
does that make any sense??


=.=


now i just wanna relax and play sims... or read fanfiction.


but thats NEVER the case when you're a registered model of Daniela Majic Photography.
so it's photo-shoot time soon.


the only REALLY good part of today is that i'm eating McDonalds.. like a fat american <3

summer =w=.

so i've officially passed grade 12 English with 85% ;D and again, i tanned today :) last night i stayed up realllly late blowing up balloons for a photoshoot, here's a pic:

[redacted]

t'was quite interesting, but i've learned not to question my sister's photography views XD i'm just the model.. i have no say. (tho i do usually do my own hair and make-up)

i'm gunna go get some more fruit loops and play with my AMAZING sims family!

it's Spain and Romano.... AND ME! ;DD they're spouses tho, i'm just a room mate XD

_____________________________________________ He can’t see the smile I’m faking And my heart’s not breaking Cause I’m not feeling anything at all thank you Taylor for summing up some things :)

lolololol FrUk.

so i got an amazing email from my friend Adriana, who is a la senza member and received this promotion...


lets just say, it made my night.. considering my favourite country relationship is France and England.. the model is smokin' hot, and it says 'friends with benefits' AHAHAHA

all i can say is Paris and London

here it is:

summer has FINALLY begun.

soooo now that i did my summer school exam, all i have to do is get my marks tomorrow and i'm done with that shit. ;D


today after my exam for the whole hour of 11:00-12:00 i was outside tanning (avec tanning oil) in other words, i ACTUALLY have colour!! and i plan to do this again tomorrow and on sunday. I want some tan for my next beauty pageant :) (in 16 days!!)


this is my plan for the rest of summer:
-work
-tan
-sew
-play sims
-practice for pageants
-attend pageant finals (then another in Sept)
-draw
-read/write fanfiction <3
-celebrate my birthday!


ahh l'été, how i missed you <3

1/2.

With my ISU presentation out of the way, half of my day has become calm.

i did really well. except my video clip didn't work, so i had to run and get the WMV file from my email.. that killed my hopes for about a minute lol.. then it worked and i was satisfied and quite happy.


some girl chose the outsiders as their book and brought the DVD so now we're watching it, and as much as i love me some Ponyboy and Sodapop i've decided to keep to myself and be the quiet girl listening to her ipod blogging in the back of the class.. as per usual. :)


i would be with Stef and Raymond.. but the losers presented before break and left =_=
w/e i like being alone.


i have a half an hour to myself.
OMG I'M GOING TO READ FANFICTION.
the second half of my day is terrifying me already.. first day as a Fabricland employee :/




wish me luck <3

ISU.. I S who?

bleh. my want to actually work on my ISU is at a severe low.
but the fact that it is REQUIRED for me to finish by tomorrow is keeping me going.
i'm done 3/10 slides for my power point... and one is the title page =_=

what i still need to do:
-a crapload of writing
-make cue-cards
-make a poster
-come up with at least 5 questions pertaining to my isu

i have about 10 hours to do all of this.
BUT chances are that including, food breaks, bathroom breaks, fat bitch time breaks, my lazyness, and facebook breaks... this will be reduced to 5 hours. wish me luck in my endevours as i will need it more than a governement needs democracy, more than panda's need bamboo, more than catholic adults need small children to corrupt :/

i always feel particularly colourful while at summer school.
dear Natasha, i'm about to tweet you informing you that i'm coming over to steal your narnia dvd. kthnxbai

Super Massive Long Hetalia Thingy.

Name twelve of your favorite Axis Powers Hetalia characters in any order.

1. France

2. Spain

3. ChibiMano

4. Romano

5. Prussia

6. England

7. Russia

8. Canada

9. Poland

10. Lithuania

11. Germania

12. Rome

1) Have you read a five/ten fic fic?

Prussia and Lithuania!? no!

2) Do you think three is hot? How hot?

oh yeahhh, cuz i'm pedo like that

3) Do you recall any good fics about nine?

that one where he calls Lithuania b/c Lithuania has been cheating on him with Russia.. i'm pretty sure it was a back-theme to a FrUk fic

4) Would seven and two make a good couple?

Russia and Spain? poor spain <3

5) Four/Eight or Four/Nine?

four/eight. romano and canada XD

6) What would happen if Seven discovered three and eight in a secret relationship?

Russia would probably not give two shits.

7) Make a summary of at least twenty words for a two six fic.

After England's epic win against Spain and his seemingly impenetrable Armada, the English man is given full confidence that he can dominate the Spaniard again, in more ways than one.

8) Is there such a thing as a four/ten romantic fluff story?

Romano and Lithuania... NO. i hope not.

9) Suggest a title for a one/five Hurt/Comfort fic.

France and Prussia..

Bad Friends good.

10) What kind of plot would you use for a three/eleven fic?

A fucking twisted one, with A LOT of crack.

11) Does anyone on your friends list read number seven? What about nine slash?

Russia.. at least on of my friends has!

Poland/ ... maybe lol

12) If you wrote a song!fic about nine, what song would you choose?

sexy naughty bitchy.

13) if you wrote a two/three/six fic, what would the warning be?

...MAJOR PEDO WARNING ...

14) What pick up line might eight use on five?

...I like your bird...eh :)

15) Challenge: Write a drabble fic for ten/eight.

i'm opting out of this due to strict head canon.

16) What would happen if Seven walked in on Two and Twelve having sex?

Russia sees Spain and Rome

i think he would just smile..

17) What kind of plot would you use if you wanted Four to deflower One?

Romano slowly and painfully plucked the rose petals off one by one, sending France into a state of excruciating torture. Romano Smiled.

18) Does anyone on your friends list read seven slash?

iunno.. I READ RUSSIAMERICA

19) Does anyone on your friends list read Three hetero?

NOOO because one day, that boy will grow up to be a wonder gay man <3

20) Does anyone on your friends list draw eleven?

i have...

21) Would you write Two/Four/Five?

SPAIN/ROMANO/PRUSSIA YEHAHHYEAHHHHHHHHHH i actually am compelled to now XDD

22) What might Ten scream at a moment of great passion?

Protecting his Poland <3

23) When was the last time you read a fic about Five?

Prussia.. recently..

24) What is Six’s super-secret kink?

... FRANCIS...with a unicorn horn up his bum bum : D <3

25) Would Eleven shag nine? Drunk or sober?

no not at all.

26) If Three and Seven got together, who tops?

Russia... poor Chibimano <3

27) “One and Nine are in a happy relationship until Nine suddenly runs off with Four. One, broken-hearted, has a hot one-night stand with Eleven and a brief unhappy affair with Twelve, then follows the wise advice of Five and finds true love with Two.” What title would you give this fic?

“France and Poland are in a happy relationship until Poland suddenly runs off with Romano. France, broken-hearted, has a hot one-night stand with Rome and a brief unhappy affair with Germaina, then follows the wise advice of Prussia and finds true love with Spain.”

'Closer than you think' ..due to the fact that spain and france are beside each other

28) How would you feel if Seven/Eight was canon?

uh... i'd scared for my country's life

Russia and Canada :/ actually i read a fic where the whole world is with Canada and i quite enjoyed the Russia/Canada scenes considering Russia get's turned into a kitty and i love cats!

29) What would Twelve and One be like in a relationship?

Rome and France.. i could see it, if Rome wasn't old and decrepit.. but in his prime they'd probably do lovely nasty things on a certain Roman's boat ;D

30) Two and Ten: Totally crack or canon?

Spain and Germaina. CRACCCCKK

31) Is four het or slash better?

ROMANO...SLASHHHHH SPAINNN <3

32) Have you ever read any fanfiction of Five and Eleven?

Prussia and Germaina.. nope

33) Why was Six afraid of Seven? Because Seven is after Nine and Ten!

Why was England afraid of Russia? Because Russia is after Poland and Lithuania... THIS IS AWESOME AND ACTUALLY MADE SENSE.

34) If Eight was to cosplay, what would they be?

Hinata from Naruto.

35) How many beers would One have to chug to go after Twelve?

..Francis drinks fine wine.. and he wouldn’t have to be drunk AT ALL to go after anyone XD

36) Would Three make a good couple with Six? Or a better couple with two?

Chibimano with England or Spain.. WELL DURRR one of my OTP's SPA-fucking-MANO

37) Six and Seven have to go n a fishing trip together. Would they end up getting “distracted” halfway through?

Distracted.. but i highly doubt it would be in a sexual way :/

38) Pick a Disney film to represent Ten and Two.

Alice in Wonderland <3

39) if Three and Eleven are doing S&M, who’s the sadist?

opting out of this question

40) Pick a song to describe a 7/12 fic.

I'm on a boat... Russia/Rome

41) is there and evidence of four/twelve?

well it's his Grandpa.. and everyone in Hetalia is quite incestuous.. :/

42) How hot would seven/three be?

anyone except for Spain with Chibimano is just NOT HOT.

43)If seven walked in on two and eight performing, shall we say, “interesting” activities, what would their reaction be?

he would go yell at Francis for letting his 'pervy friend' touch their son ;D i got some fruk in there XD

44) What’s one’s secret kink?

France:

England speaking French <3

45) How about twelve?

Boats. and being on them.

46) Or perhaps 10?

Lithuania.. :/ iunno

47) What title would you assign a one/three/five threesome?

France/Chibimano/Prussia

Spain gonna take his giant axe thing and chop yo balls off.

48) How about two/four/six?

Spain/Romano/England

Language Barriers

49) Or even seven/eight/nine?

Russia/Canada/Poland

Blonde Bombshells ;D

you don't.

You Don't Know Me Lyrics


I wanna ask you
Do you ever sit and wonder,
It's so strange
That we could be together for
So long, and never know, never care
What goes on in the other one's head?

Things I've felt but I've never said
You said things that I never said
So I'll say something that I should have said long ago:

(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all
(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all (at all)

You could have just propped me up on the table like a mannequin
Or a cardboard stand-up and paint me (paint me anything)
Any face that you wanted me
To be seen.
We're
Damned by the existential moment where
We saw the couple in the coma and
It was we were the cliché,
But we carried on anyway.

So, sure, I could just close my eyes.
Yeah, sure, trace and memorize,
But can you go back once you know

(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all
(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all (at all)

(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all
(You don't know me)
You don't know me

If I'm the person that you think I am (Ah ah ahh)
Clueless chump you seem to think I am (Ah ah ahhh)
So easily led astray,
An errant dog who occasionally escapes and needs a shorter leash, then
Why the fuck would you want me back?!

Maybe it's because


(You don't know me at all)
Ahhh ah
Ahhh ah
(You don't know me, you don't know me.)

Ahhh ah
Ahhh ah
So, what I'm trying to say is
What (What?)
I'm trying to tell you
It's not gonna come out like I wanna say it cause I know you'll only change it.


(Say it.)

(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all
(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all (at all)

(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all
(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all (at all)


...AT ALL!



..........................................................

i'd rather not explain.

DAVIDDD.

 spent the day with David.. in other words, today was AWESOMEEEE <3 this day entailed browsing a ton of stores around the movie theatre, sitting in an empty theatre for a good 20-30 minutes, watching the last airbender.. then having mini bending battles as well as discussing our elements XD some fun happenings: -*upon seeing the tarot card box entitled 'Easy Tarot' and thinking the picture is pretty* David accidentally says "THATS SO EASYYY" -complaining about the prices at Michaels -*Edward Cullen poster* "wow, if i wanted pussy, i'd be straight" XD -playing with the soft fluffy paint brushes -"I FOUND THE BIRDS!" -squeaking all the dog toys

-playing DDR and getting ALL the same scores XD -sitting in an empty theatre talking about sex XD -"and i jizzed in her mouth" XD -"every time you do that, i get wet" -"He may be an air bender AND a water bender.. but i'm a David bender"-me ;D -"no really, i'm a Hair bender" XD i missed david.. and my thumb nail is still blue from him painting it at the pharmasave XD <3

wow.

oh wow man..
if what i really think is what i'm sure of.. then people are gunna fucking hate me v_v



WELL ANYWAY my room is spotless clean. and my sister is visiting today :/
i'm realllly bored..
why is no one replying to me on facebook?


awrniesygpenrhptrjhtdf

i need to shower.

Poems.

Today, i was given two hours to write 5 poems lol, and i'd like to share them XD

Haiku - Flowers

Pulled in the flowers

She has sacrificed herself

To them she belongs

Acrostic - Wonderland

Whirlwind of imagination
Outside the box
Nothing is what it is not
Drowning in fantasy
Ecstasy in the magic
Rupture your mundane thoughts
Lost, yet found
Alluring your senses
Nonsense, yet sensible
Dreaming of wonder.

Diamonte- Conscious Dreaming

Asleep

Quiet, Dark

Dreaming, Resting, Drifting

Fantasy, Closed, Open, Reality

Knowing, Seeing, Doing

Conscious, Light

Awake

Cinquain - Masked

Mask

Concealed, hidden
Lying, burrowing, covering

Deceived, Camouflaged, Veiled, Shielded
Disguise

Limerick - Humid

Puffy is my Hair
Direct at you I stare

Look like a cat
My hair not flat
Humidity in the air

Apperently.

So apparently i'm re-living a VERY similar experience.

The first time it was "Joan of Arc is not a martyr"... HELLLNO...
NOW it's
"Napoleon Bonaparte, is NOT a tragic hero"... EXCUSEMOI...

THESE TEACHERS NEED TO STOP HATING ON THE FRENCH.. I JUST WANT TO DO A PROJECT ON A FRENCH PERSON!!!

well admittedly, my summer school teacher said he is a tragic hero, but he doesn't fit all the criteria that i need to quote, therefore i can't write an essay on him. FUUUU

my new tragic hero is Martha Stewart.. that greedy bitch.

gsjrotgnrekhboojy-this is a spacer :)-hrfuinbirgfigbeiguzhdoiy


HAPPY BASTILLE DAY IN FRANCE!!! <3

For you. Feel.

I know the feeling hurts. Sometimes I feel as though I understand. And it may feel like it will never end. But the feelings can at least be pushed aside. When better feelings decide to visit. And the way you feel, leaves you alone. But when someone like me feels your sorrow, I feel as though the only importance to me at this moment.. is your happiness. So let my love feel your soul. Maybe you may too feel what i've felt. This feeling that keeps me going, keeps me feeling. I don't want you to feel alone... -A

ESPAÑAAAA.

So Spain won.. AGAIN ;D

they're in the finals now.

Paul the Octopus:
http://edition.cnn.com/2010/SPORT/football/07/06/germany.octopus.semifinal/?hpt=C2&imw=Y&fbid=p2DkSQ9-pkv

he's predicted every one of Germany's games correctly.
my father goes: 'I'M GOING TO KILL THAT STUPID OCTOPUS!!' ahahahahah

i LOVE THAT OCTOPUS

except now they face Netherlands, and for those of you who know. my lovely boyfriend is a netherlands fan XD

IT'S ONNN. 8D

we need to make a bet XD

8D.

....... 8D
life is good.

fighting dreamers.

for some stupid obnoxious reason, 'fighting dreamers' has been stuck in my head all morning =_=

though morning isn't even close to over -_- it's 10 am exactly.
and i'm at school. summer school to be exact. bleh
and we're in the library on the computers, i should be working on my first essay, but i'm actually ahead.. so i have time to blog. At first i wasn't talking to many people, but some girl and me started talking today b/c we both had to deal with sign-up problems .. we weren't on the attendance. also since we're in the library, i'm sitting with the guys from my school.

The school is FREEZING and i'm hungry.. we have break in 45 mintes.. then 3 more hours to go =____=

atleast i have two new internet friends :) Heather and Shelly 8DD i need some friends...

BUT ANYWAY imma make it look like i'm working, ttyl loves <3 br="">
-A~

Dear Anonymous..10..

Anon 1.
why did you give up?
I know it seems more like it's my fault that you won't keep trying.
but I miss you trying.
I want you trying.
I want you in my life.

Anon 2.
Why do I doubt you?
I honestly wish I knew.
more and more we seem related to them.
it's honestly depressing.
I just want to trust your love.

Anon 3.
I'm trying to help you.
can't you see that?
let me help you.

Anon 4.
I wish I could treat you better..
You deserve it.
But for some reason, I can't bring myself to give you 'better'.

Anon 5.
Go Away!
You're just flat out ruining things...

Anon 6.
I'm sorry that I hurt you..
unfortunately sometimes ... things happen...

Anon 7.
You're immature.
Please grow up soon.

Anon 8.
You're pretty immature too.
Not as immature as 'Anon 7', but immature in a different way.
Soon your problems will go away, just give it time.

Anon 9.
I wish you wouldn't hurt him.
He doesn't deserve what you're giving him.

....Anon 10....
Stop lying to yourself
Stop 'fake-smiling'
Stop denying your angsty-ness
Stop doubting
Stop regretting
Stop trying so hard
Stop holding on
Stop wishing
and for god's sake...
Stop crying...
Just stop it!

*sigh*