marks.

dear school, why do you ALWAYS make me get in trouble with my father??


this semester, my marks were:
art-88%
history-95%
religion-80%

...then there's math.... *cough*59percent*cough*

FML

i'm screwed no matter what, it's either show my dad my report card and lie about my exam marks. or NOT show him my report card AND lie about my exam marks.. =_= i'm lying either way...

on the plus side, i was SUPPOSED to pass history with a 92% but mr.del sordo (my hero), told me that he thought '92 isn't very 'Alisha'!' so he took a speech i VOLUNTARILY wrote earlier this semester expressing how Hercules Legendary Journeys is beneficial to his ancient history class and MARKED IT! XDD and my mark ended up going up to a 95%..
did i mention that i love him? XD

oh! and i got my mark for what i got on my religion isu, i got 88% ;D

again on the plus side, i need 30 credits to graduate and i have 24 atm. =D i'll be graduating with 31 credits (b/c of summer school)... which (if anyone realllly knows me) is my least favourite number XD

yup.. i'm gunna go make up some lies now :)

honestly? and other stuff.

i don't hate you..

i never could..
i just wish you would at least talk to me.

________________________

today i went to caitie's house and did her hair for the grad dance. victory rolls ftw! it looked awesome ;D
then i walked ALL the way home and on my way, some guy in a Spanish jersey winks at me and goes 'cutie', and my response was 'DID SPAIN WIN?!' and he goes 'yeahhhh 1-0!' and i got all excited, we high-fived, then continued on our way XD

then i got home, chilled for a bit, than Care biked over, i made her a nutella sandwich and we hung in my backyard.. and talked about a lot of things <3

at this point.. i'm sitting at my comp.. i was reading fanfiction, but i can't stay focused.. too much on my mind :/

maybe ill go to sleep. ttyl

don't want this.

Do you ever feel like your day was ruined?

of course i feel like this often. so the first part of my day was horrible..

at least care is coming to visit for the little while that my mom is letting her stay over...

i wanted to go see toy story 3.

summer starts.

so exams were actually all okay. i figured out a lot about mr. del sordo from erica.. i'm so glad i was especially nice to him.. he deserves it. that man is my hero. i won't elaborate.

anyway so after exams my short-term summer has begun. i have until july 5th until summer school starts :/ i'm taking grade 12 English to get it over with :) after my last exam on friday, i went to Nick's house and we swam in his pool ;D we both burnt.. but of course his ginger skin burnt MUCH more than my European skin ;) and today i went to TO with my mommy and sister and my mom and me saw Jersey Boys, then my sister, her husband, and me took my mom out to dinner for her b-day =D and tomorrow i have some secret plans ;) (even tho evan wanted me to go see toy story 3, nono, i already have plans)

soooo. i lost my retainer and my teeth are shifting. sucks to be me.

oh i was in a beauty pageant recently and won. i'm now 'Beamsville Teen Strawberry Queen 2010' (i'm not even from Beamsville ;D)


i saw this in a facebook 'like' and i like it...

There will always be a 'lie' in be"lie"ve, an "over" in l"over" an "end" in fri"end"s, "us" in tr"us"t and an "if" in l"if"e.

Lalalalala.

lately.. every time there is a silenced moment, i REALLLLLY get the urge to yell something out-loud to everyone! XDD

lalalalalalalalalalalalalala

OMG so liek theres onlee 1 moar dai ov skool! XD (I can actually speak English.)

well then there's exams :/ BUT it's pretty awesome nonetheless!
it's a civies day tomorrow, so i get to wear a really cute dress with an anchor on it, that i bought in Québec! =D

well now i'm going to avoid doing last minute homework b/c i'm totally lazy, but who cares anyway! ;D

And in Fifa Action: France sucked today D:< non! i'm disappointed

prayer.

i'm not really catholic, but i had to write a prayer for school.. so i did

Why is it that there are 115 million children without an education?
Why is it that students are bullied every day at school?
Why is it that parents abuse their children?
Why is it that over a billion people in the world live in poverty?
Why is it that so many people are starving?
Why is it that not enough people are helping?
Why don’t we stand up for those in need, and for vital causes?
Please give us the strength.
Because one person can help educate children, stop bullying, raise awareness on child abuse, help those in poverty, or feed the starving.
It’s as easy has having faith.
Why not help me start now?
Amen.

whispers.

I have so many things i want to say..

but i can't.

the only way i can get these thoughts out is to whisper them to myself in the safety and privacy of my room.

i would never tell anyone what i whisper.

there was once a time where i would tell one person.

but my whispers are now for myself and only myself.

it's a shame is it not?

murr.

new word i made to explain frustration. i'm at that point in life where it seems that things are constantly going up and down. i miss last year. at this exact time, i would probably be watching some anime or reading fanfictions without a care in the world and no place to go later. i would be alone and lazy. and i would LOVE it. ... i have bakugan tooth paste.. but i'm scared to use it b/c i don't like the smell... is that lame? speaking of bakugan, i realllly need to get caught up because theyadded new characters and got rid of Mira and them (THANK GOODNESS) now the characters are: Dan Shun Marucho Julie a gorgeous girl named Fabia an ugly guy named Ren and a butch ginger named Jake as well as a bunch of monstery looking ppl with weird names :/ what i'm asking is.. where the fuck did Runo go? atleast Julie's back (Y) i'm actually super curious now. anyway, i'm going to see prince of Persia later (Y) that'll be epic. ..sometimes i wonder why i bother to post anymore.. EDIT: SHIT! it's rumoured that Fabia could be with Shun D':

EDIT from 2020: Bitch, you ended up LOVING Gundalian Invaders. Fuck off lmao. Ren is cute and Fabia is gorgeous. Also wtf is that Mira hate about??

DID YOU?

HEY YOU! YEAH YOU!

DID YOU FORGET I EXIST?!?!

i get no comments anymore >:(

also i just realized that i often blog the night before a big math test.

i feel like i sprained my left ankle.. again. OW

i'm on a horse.

bother me?

it usually doesn't.

but then i think 'what if i'm butting in?' 'what if i'm being annoying?' 'what if they don't want me around?'

then i get discouraged and don't even try :/

maybe i'll go do my religion isu, or write some fanfiction...

school again.

so i'm on the laptop at school. again.
i ended up skipping 4th period yesterday too :/ i've been bad lately.
i'm supposed to be doing an assignment about the French Rococo style of art, but i'm lazy and i always procrastonate, so why not again?

this laptop only has 11 more minutes of life :/ that sucks

15 days until my next beauty pageant :)

school.

i'm at school. i skipped first to watch a musical review by the drama class. it was pretty bad, cept for the cell block tango.. that was great :) (they picked the best singers)

it would be better if i was in it, i know it sounds concieded but its true..

Nick is getting his appendix taken out D: i hope he's okay <3 i'm gunna visit him soon.

i gotta give this laptop back now :/

yay. to lunch.

what?

what's the point of one without the other?


writing fanfiction hasn't been as much fun as it used to be. my stories are just getting angstier and angstier..

soon enough i'll probably end up breaking up my OTP... again =_=

it doesn't hurt me.

It's not that I want you,
It's that I need you.
I know you're trying
and so am I,
To lose this hatred
let it pass by.
Unfortunately for us
It's not that simple, just to forget.
When you have my concience
and feel my regret.
You tell me you need me as much as i need you,
but more and more i believe it's not true...

but it doesn't hurt me.
Nope. I am falsely happy.

and one last note,
from my throat.
There is something else i hide..
maybe it has died?

For now, i will huddle up and cry...

-A