2019.

I am not okay.

I am mean.

I'm a mean girl.

But also my partner is mean.

I don't even know how to write this.

I can't deal with all this "I'm nonbinary" shit from her.. It's fucking stupid and feels 100% like a special snowflake thing to be popular online. I don't believe for a second that in ten years she'll still see herself as "non-gendered".

Today has been hard.

Lately has been hard.

We have rings for each other but right now I don't even know if I want to give it to her.

I'll be on a trip with her in like 5 days, and I'll just have to deal with my weird, deep rooted anger.

I don't think this is the person I want to marry.

I'll check back in a year probably.

Hopefully happy.