Willow.

Also I lost Willow in September.

2019.

I am not okay.

I am mean.

I'm a mean girl.

But also my partner is mean.

I don't even know how to write this.

I can't deal with all this "I'm nonbinary" shit from her.. It's fucking stupid and feels 100% like a special snowflake thing to be popular online. I don't believe for a second that in ten years she'll still see herself as "non-gendered".

Today has been hard.

Lately has been hard.

We have rings for each other but right now I don't even know if I want to give it to her.

I'll be on a trip with her in like 5 days, and I'll just have to deal with my weird, deep rooted anger.

I don't think this is the person I want to marry.

I'll check back in a year probably.

Hopefully happy.

2018.

I feel like it's necessary to check back in here every once in a while.

Things are good.

I use the word good because they're not excellent, but they're not bad.

Just good.


I'm still happily in love. That's going very well for me. We still have issues regarding marriage and relocating.


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I never finished this but I need to post it.