Tuesday, March 26, 2013
Adventures in infiltration.
I feel like I really shouldn't be mentioning any of this on the internet, but it's not like anyone (except maybe Clara) reads these.
I'm a bit of a creep.
You could even say stalker.
When I want someone who's popular online to be my internet friend... it happens.
Because I infiltrate their friendship circles.
At this point, i've done it 3 times successfully and i'm on my way to another.
I'm devious... and creepy as fuck.
but I get what I want.
Sunday, March 3, 2013
Hurricane...
Welcome to the inner workings of my mind
so dark and foul I can't disguise
can't disguise
nights like this
I become afraid
of the darkness in my heart
hurricane
I just feel like I can't catch a break from all of this.
November I drank...a lot... alcohol was my best friend... keeping me from the heart ache of having to watch a girl i'd fallen for ask someone else out.. and after we slept together too..
December I became unintentionally anorexic. I just wasn't hungry at all... I was ridiculously underweight, passing out and feeling dizzy..
Recently gained a safe amount back.. but now i feel like fat shit. Not that i'll do anything about it.
My father is making my life a hell with all this driving shit. I don't want to get my license... I never wanted to, my parents paid $900 for this shit when they knew I was scared to drive.. and now they're wondering why the fuck i'm wasting it.
School is shit, I want to change my major, but my sister who fucking runs my life won't allow it.
I'm failing school, work, my body, my parents, my sister....
I'm just a failure right now.
so dark and foul I can't disguise
can't disguise
nights like this
I become afraid
of the darkness in my heart
hurricane
I just feel like I can't catch a break from all of this.
November I drank...a lot... alcohol was my best friend... keeping me from the heart ache of having to watch a girl i'd fallen for ask someone else out.. and after we slept together too..
December I became unintentionally anorexic. I just wasn't hungry at all... I was ridiculously underweight, passing out and feeling dizzy..
Recently gained a safe amount back.. but now i feel like fat shit. Not that i'll do anything about it.
My father is making my life a hell with all this driving shit. I don't want to get my license... I never wanted to, my parents paid $900 for this shit when they knew I was scared to drive.. and now they're wondering why the fuck i'm wasting it.
School is shit, I want to change my major, but my sister who fucking runs my life won't allow it.
I'm failing school, work, my body, my parents, my sister....
I'm just a failure right now.
Labels:
alcohol,
depression,
failure,
heartbreak,
university
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