2017.

Since my last post, I've graduated a Visual Merchandising college program, got a job with an incredible company and moved to a different city (officially next weekend). I've also become the decently famous cosplayer I've wanted to be since I was 13. Additionally, I lost my best friend to a man-baby who she claims to love. Luckily I gained another best friend from it all. And an amazing roommate. Though I'll be on my own soon. Oh and in 2014, I was forced out of the closet by my sister.

I've grown up a lot...

I have fears.

I talked about falling in love with her, you know who I mean. I wrote about her in 2013. We're still in love. Only things are hard... I'm comfortable here with this life. Things are good for me. Things are not good for her. All she wants is for me to move 1,500 miles from home to be with her.

I'd be miserable.

Also, shit is going down in the US... basically dictatorship levels of shit...

I've been living in a state of limbo, that exists in deep waters with a high, fast moving tide... there's been a lot of swaying. Nausea. Anxiety.

Also I almost couldn't recover this account and I freaked out.. this weird blog is actually really important to me. I look back at it. I write the very private things I can't write anywhere else.

I need this.

Please, I ask the world to just send me positive things only this year....